After three and a half years, I feel a strong desire to pick up the phone and call Kevin this morning.
I haven't felt that urge in a long time. My heart still aches.
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Friday, February 24, 2012
Monday, February 20, 2012
Updates to my blog
I have exciting news! My blog has been nominated for Top 25 Circle of Moms blog. On the right hand side of my blog homepage, you'll see a new symbol that you can click on to vote for my blog. Everyone can vote daily until March 7th. Please take a moment now to click on the pink "Circle of Moms Top 25 Vote for Me." Or, click on this link Life After Death - vote now.
Also, you'll notice that I've added three new features to my homepage:
1. You can now sign up to follow me by email. This way, you'll be sure to stay up to date with all my latest blog posts.
2. I've added a counter to my homepage that shows how many times my blog has been viewed since I created it. Share my blog with your friends, family and other widows/widowers and watch the ticker climb.
3. You can now see, along the right hand side, a list of my top ten most popular blog posts ever written. By far, number one remains to lead all other posts by thousands of hits.
I hope you enjoy the changes. Please feel free to provide your comments and feedback. I want to make sure you enjoy reading my blog posts in order to help you heal, stay apprised of where I am in this process or just to better understand what it's like to lose a spouse and have to start life all over again.
Thank you for your support.
© 2012 by Jennifer M. Karn
Also, you'll notice that I've added three new features to my homepage:
1. You can now sign up to follow me by email. This way, you'll be sure to stay up to date with all my latest blog posts.
2. I've added a counter to my homepage that shows how many times my blog has been viewed since I created it. Share my blog with your friends, family and other widows/widowers and watch the ticker climb.
3. You can now see, along the right hand side, a list of my top ten most popular blog posts ever written. By far, number one remains to lead all other posts by thousands of hits.
I hope you enjoy the changes. Please feel free to provide your comments and feedback. I want to make sure you enjoy reading my blog posts in order to help you heal, stay apprised of where I am in this process or just to better understand what it's like to lose a spouse and have to start life all over again.
Thank you for your support.
© 2012 by Jennifer M. Karn
Sunday, February 19, 2012
Someone Else
I had just left work on a Wednesday evening when I'd received a text message from my sister-in-law asking if I was interested in joining her and a few others for happy hour. I rarely go out on a work night, but the sun was shinning and I had been feeling better. So, I replied that I would meet her as soon as I ran home to freshen up and make sure the kids were set for the evening.
I met five of Kevin's family members at a local bar/restaurant and had a few drinks and lots of laughs. I was sitting at the bar when a rather handsome guy came in with two friends and sat down at the opposite end next to one of my sisters-in-law, Kathy. Even though I hadn't been interested in meeting anyone, he caught my eye. I had been checking him out for a little while when I decided to text Kathy who was sitting only four seats away from me.
"Does the guy sitting by you have a wedding ring on?" She couldn't tell, so she stood up and looked.
"No," she texted back.
"Is there an empty seat next to you?" I asked.
"Yes."
"Ok, I'm coming down," I replied. I looked up to see her smiling as I nonchalantly made my way down the bar to the empty seat between Kathy and the really cute guy without a wedding ring. Within just a few minutes, he and I were talking. We carried on some small talk for a while before we exchanged numbers.
Two days later, on a Friday, we went on our first date.
Today, seven months later, we're still dating. He's sweet, kind, patient and an all around wonderful person. He helps me in lots of ways and I feel at peace when I'm with him. He keeps my heart from aching and brings smiles to my face every day.
When Kevin died, I couldn't imagine dating someone else, much less loving another man. For a long time after, I didn't even want to live. It was a very rough 3 years before I met Tim. I still have bad days, especially when I get stressed or things are tough with the kids. But, Tim grounds me and provides a calmness that gets me through my tears. He understands that the kids and I have experienced a tremendous loss and we are still healing.
I would've never thought, in a million years, that Kevin would die at the age of 40.
I would've never thought, in a million years, that I would meet someone else.
© 2012 by Jennifer M. Karn
I met five of Kevin's family members at a local bar/restaurant and had a few drinks and lots of laughs. I was sitting at the bar when a rather handsome guy came in with two friends and sat down at the opposite end next to one of my sisters-in-law, Kathy. Even though I hadn't been interested in meeting anyone, he caught my eye. I had been checking him out for a little while when I decided to text Kathy who was sitting only four seats away from me.
"Does the guy sitting by you have a wedding ring on?" She couldn't tell, so she stood up and looked.
"No," she texted back.
"Is there an empty seat next to you?" I asked.
"Yes."
"Ok, I'm coming down," I replied. I looked up to see her smiling as I nonchalantly made my way down the bar to the empty seat between Kathy and the really cute guy without a wedding ring. Within just a few minutes, he and I were talking. We carried on some small talk for a while before we exchanged numbers.
Two days later, on a Friday, we went on our first date.
Today, seven months later, we're still dating. He's sweet, kind, patient and an all around wonderful person. He helps me in lots of ways and I feel at peace when I'm with him. He keeps my heart from aching and brings smiles to my face every day.
When Kevin died, I couldn't imagine dating someone else, much less loving another man. For a long time after, I didn't even want to live. It was a very rough 3 years before I met Tim. I still have bad days, especially when I get stressed or things are tough with the kids. But, Tim grounds me and provides a calmness that gets me through my tears. He understands that the kids and I have experienced a tremendous loss and we are still healing.
I would've never thought, in a million years, that Kevin would die at the age of 40.
I would've never thought, in a million years, that I would meet someone else.
© 2012 by Jennifer M. Karn
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